Longing

Longing for the warmth,
But it is non existence here,
Yearning to feel accepted,
With no worries of abandonement,

Why am in this crowd?
It is noisy yet I feel so alone,
Sometimes I do smile, I do laugh..
It serve as a remembrance of who I once were,
Now I feel like it is lines being spoken,
An act, a front being put up,
To be seemingly normal..

I wish to be in a place of eternal glow,
Where love runs free and everyone is accepting,
I want to dance around the field,
Knowing that soul gaze on me secretly,

And to feel at that moment,
I am the lock on target,
Before the pounce,
Dangerous as it were,
Beautiful as it is,
Because at that still moment,
Both of us are rushing to finally meet one another,

Without any bounding circumstance,
Without any resistance,
No regret,

I've waited and travelled so long,
For him, her or it,
To be manifested in this world
So I won't be alone anymore,
The night is chilling,
I am lost in this unwavering dreams

Unreal as it is,
Real it is too,
I wish and yearn..
For you.. to come.. and take this feelings away..
Fill in this void and eradicate my fear..

And most importantly..
Read the very language of my eyes

Azam Fadley (2013)