Sunday, January 12, 2014

Shit

Hello dearest.. I am 26 and still fucking single..

"Azam.. it'll be worth the wait.. you will receive someone great to compliment your personality"

Yeah yeah.
Crap.

It is already a quarter of century.. I am still unable to walk side by side by someone.. should I point my fucking middle finger to someone else?

No.

I realized that there is something wrong with me.. yes.. in order for me to have someone.. I guess I have to relinquished every single thing about me.. in order to be compatible with the general public..

Why I am so fucking complicated? I did not chose to be so fucking different.. I'm tired.. tired to put a smile and be happy while secretly hoping for someone to knock on my door..

I get it. I get it so well now.. it's a worthwhile climb.. but I am not sure what awaits me up there anymore..

It's a worthwhile travel into the depth of the tunnel.. sorry that I mistaken the fireflies as the light at the end of the tunnel

Here I am in this bullshit fucking hell kind of situation..

Yes.. I am sad.. yes I am crying.. and yes I cannot confide this to anyone.. a pat on a back and gentle kind words does not erased the fact that I am such a loser..


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